Back Home: School Changes and a Turning Point

Yeah, welcome to Legions Word. Yeah, so back to where I'm from last week and I'm sorry for missing a week still because I was going to be consistent with the story in it. So my apologies. Yeah, so moving forward. So just a quick thing with St. Patrick's School as well. Thank you for the teachers like Mr. Clark and that. Mr. Clark, Mr. Davey, appreciate you well. And a little shout out to a few of my friends as well that I missed them out and it wasn't on purpose. So big up like Misha Benjamin, Yasmin, Nadine, Ismay, and yeah, once again Michael, Neil, Tyrone, Tintin, my brother's little mate David Luglo and that. Yeah, I appreciate them times in St. Patrick's. So moving forward now, remember I was in Stoke Newton and so I've left Stoke Newton now. And another thing, just a little briefing with the children's home kids, just to say like, remember, we're not sure what, I mean, what you've been going through. And as I said, I was doing my little statistics. I know it's still going on there and then, and then moving forward quickly on them subjects. There's going to be loads of people coming to share their life experiences and their stories. So I'm moving forward in it. Yeah, so you can get to entwine with them and go on, like, see what they've gone through and how they've made it today. And that what the basic outcome in it. So the good and the bad of the foster care system and the children's home. So not leaving it, but my life story, I'm putting on hold for now until we start getting little other people joining the conversation. Now, yeah, so now Stoke Newton's finished, children's home first. Respect my foster parents as well. Thank you very much. Moving forward now. So now we're in 1991. Yeah. And I'm, yeah, 1991. So now me and my brother, if you remember in the last story with the care orders over. So we've, yeah, we've gone to the, we've gone to the county court or whatever, and they've basically give me back, sadly give custody back to my mum. That's my mum. She's, do you know what I mean? So I'm anyway, I'm back at home now. Yeah. I'm back at home. My older brothers in that. Cause remember, as I said, again, I was beating my brother. I thought they completed the care system. So now understanding we never, all of us came home. So back to 91. So my brother, my older brothers are going to be Tony and my sister, Vinette. They're going to be 15, 16. So we're all back in Forest Road now anyway. Yeah. And another thing while I'm on it, and this is so bad of me in it. Cause I talk about my brothers like, yeah, my brothers, Tony, Richard, Vinette. Listen, my brother, my sister, Michaela. It wasn't. Yeah. My sister, Michaela, Cadeen and all my half brothers and sisters. So the Shelleys all chink for the one and all that. So remember I've got loads of brothers and sisters. So it wasn't on purpose, but just appreciate I've got like brothers and sisters, Michaela as well. Sorry about that. Right. Let me just not go too fast now. Let me just slow down again. And that's what happens when you miss a week. Yeah. But listen, no, back to serious stuff. So anyway, I'm back in Forest Road, 91. So as I said again before.

All the people I was with, they went to Holy Family. Well, my older brother Richard went to Holy Family, if you remember what I'm saying. But because of whatever happened to them, I didn't get accepted in Holy Family. So then I ended up being in Willowfield. So this is where it's a little transition in it. So we're going from primary school now, we're in secondary school, Willowfield. I remember I was briefed on Willowfield and just so I'm not wrong, I was in Willowfield for a couple months. And then I went on to McKinney School. Yeah, that's where I met up with all different areas and boroughs. As I said, I find it strange in my last one, as in my last conversation, how they kind of merge everyone together. Yeah, so as I said, I live on Forest Road, starting to go to McKinney School. So McKinney comes with all the boroughs in it, Leighton, Leyenstone, Hackney, Tottenham. So we're in McKinney School. But even then, remember, I always talk about the kids that went to school and then the ones that was playing out after school and that little structure where they didn't have to go home or did have to go home. Anyway, I was one to play out all the time anyway, or get home, get changed, start playing out from school. So remember, so yeah, so I'm in my house. I'm going to go to school now. Because remember, I'm going to see how my life's panning out in it from me leaving home and school and after school and how I change my thinking to everyone else in it. And we're talking about the sports. And that sports is very important, how sports affect us in school and whatever, your books and all them things there. Yeah, because I'm good on discipline in terms of how I was brought to go to school. So I can be corrected. I wasn't, I got expelled anyway. So let me just get to it. I got expelled in 1993. So I went to McKinney, as I said, me and my bridge and Jonathan, me and him went to McKinney. And I want to say Jonathan because he lived close to my house. And then it was Shaki, Shefki. And these are people I'm growing up around. Yeah, remember, we're going to be in school and after school playing that. So that's why I talk about these people anyway. So we were in school and then we get to after school. And then remember, if you're not all from Stone, I'm not sure you know, you've got High Mill and then you've got Priory Court. And this is where Priory Court becomes a big part of my growing up as well because my older brother, he managed to find his missus, his girlfriend in Priory Court. She had some brothers. Respect Stefan, innit? Because me and Stefan, he managed to be an influence in my life as well. Yeah, so Stefan is Priory Court. And then you've got Joe and you've got all the little older people. And as I said, over the time I might miss names, but they're going to come in again anyway because you're a part of my story. And if there's any issues, we can always kind of make it, you know what I'm saying? We can meet up and have a little chat. So there's no disrespect, I'm just talking to you because you've been a part of my story, influencing my life in the best way, innit? So yeah, we're going to school now. And then it was like High Mill. And as I said, I don't say this lightly. There's a lot of, and remember we've got down as criminals and people that do well, break the law. So that's the side we're kind of getting to. But it's not all about that because I didn't just start like that. So anyway, we're 11 and 12. Me, Jonathan, Shaki, Shefki, his little brother. And then my brother's got older brothers as well. So there's loads of different influences, yeah? So I'll just...

That's the beyond of that story now, but back to me anyway. Yeah, so I think it's about transition 1992 now. I've been, man I got expelled from Willie Ford. And remember, as I said again, when I'm talking, sometimes I go back and forth. But I always remember I'm in Forest Road and I pulled my dad in late, but my dad's always been in my life, innit? And my dad's like a, he was very regimented and disciplined. So when I got expelled from the first school, bear in mind, I was always in the children's home. No, I was in the foster care system, but I got the care order back. But I don't know if you know the system, if it's the same today, you've always got a social worker. Even though you get the care order back, they're kind of still, they're still monitoring, not monitoring you, but you're still available. If you need us, you can call us anyway, basically that's what I'm trying to, yeah? So remember, I've got an older brother that was half doing his own little thing. I've got two older brothers, but I'll talk about my older brother, because my brother Richard, me and him are like, he's not, he's all right. But I'm saying my older brother was the one to start, truth be told, doing little breaking laws. So now and again, police will be coming to my house, looking for my brother. This is all in 91, 92, yeah? Not for me, for my brother Tony, yeah? And he was getting arrested and doing all sorts of stuff, yeah? And he's a big influence in my life as well, my brother Tony, but I'll get to him anyway. Anyway, so my dad, he was disciplined. But remember, my dad's got, so my dad's met my mom and they've got three kids. Let me get something straight. But we've all come from the same mom, innit? So he's got, he's took on three kids, which is my mom's first three, Tony, Richard, Vinette, and then my stepdad Tony, Shelley, rest in peace. But anyway, so my dad's took on them. And it's only later I realized, I thought, why the fuck, sorry, why are you working with me like this? You're dealing with me different to them three. Bear in mind, I'm your son. If we're going to be technical, forget the crossword, we're all back in one room anyway. But I know later why I was dealt with like that. So it's not worth me going to later to talk now because I didn't understand that now and I'm trying to still be 12, 13, innit? If you can see where I'm going with this, yeah? Dad was very regimented. He was all about books, cleaning, discipline, just energy, yeah? And just looking for something, a mistake in me. And I'm saying, I'm not looking for no mistakes. But anyway, I just go around and go to my mom anyway, boy, man. So I'm going to make a spell from Willowfield. McKinney was the turn. Because I was in McKinney, I love McKinney. Remember, I linked loads of guys in McKinney. So big up them North London youths, Tottenham, Taylor. Taylor didn't even go to school with me. So not Taylor, Patrick, Nathan, Tishan. And then, oh, we're going to mix them all together anyway, yeah? Because McKinney's a short-lived time anyway. So I only done about two, about a year in McKinney. I think a year, 93, stroke 94, I get expelled. But remember, I'm still with the social service. My dad's disciplined. So my dad used to do a lot of grabbing up and all that. So he's got cheeks to it, though. My dad loved using his hand. But big up my dad, innit? Yeah, so your thing was slap, talk later. So we understood them ones. And I used to, I'm not a liar, but I used to talk just silly. You know, the little lies you don't need to pull off. I'm in trouble, tell the truth. I kind of always trying to make it. It's not about me, yeah? But anyway, 1993, come home from school. No, I've been expelled.

Apologies to what I've been exposed because, yeah, I was starting to be a problem, as I said, from outside of school and then inside of school. So I started trying to, I don't even know what it's called now, man, borrowing people's stuff and trying to lend it and give it back on and then they don't get it back. You know what I mean? Just let me borrow it for a couple of days and I'll give it back and I'll try and, I kind of weren't giving their stuff back. So, and then mums get involved, you know how that works, and then bam. Anyway, I'm exposed. But see now, because of the situation with my dad and the way he tasted with his hands. Remember I said there's an area of fire, isn't it? Yeah, on High Mill, on High Mill, the social service. So I'm saying to myself, right, you got exposed from the first school, you got a few slaps for that. This is not the time and you've only lasted another time in this new school and you've got to face the big man. So I said, you know, I'm not even going to do it now. I've had enough of them lashes and now I feel like a little fraggle for doing that now still because that's not really my motive. You know, I remember looking back now, you're a little softy. But anyway, I just went to social services. I said, that madman, I've been exposed from school. We have to go back and approach him together. And see my dad, he's a pride man. Remember all dads, you know what I'm saying to you? I'm his son, isn't it? He's going to discipline me how he thinks right to discipline me. Yeah, by the same time, that was it. That was the final straw. I'm reasoning this is a very important part of my life because as I said to you, I was not, yeah, yeah, my dad was someone I would dodge and try my best not to be caught up in him. My mum, yeah. So basically, anyway, from that day there, even though my dad was, he was always in my life. So let's not try and mix this up with foster care, children's homes, because there's no excuses. It's all done however it panned out, it panned out, isn't it? But he's a big influence on my life and he taught me the best of the little discipline and the books and make sure you got a brain and make sure you're not stupid, so on and so on. But he used to, yeah, he was heavy with your hand, dad. Big up your ting anyway. Respect dad, not even big ups. Respect my dad, yeah. So then when I turn up with them two white guys at the door, that was it. Our relationship was done from then. There was no more discipline. There was no more screaming. He gave me the look at that door and I'll never forget it to the day. He didn't care after that. And if I look back now, that was basically the turning point for me in both like raw sweet. But now I'm getting away with it. My mum can't put that fear that my dad put into me. And where he just said, sweet, yeah, you've done that move on me, which we know that move is. Come on, that's like whatever that, you know what that's called. That's crazy, but we done it anyway. So my shackles are off. Yeah, I've been exposed and now I'm going to get to, so remember, even though I've been exposed, they're going to try and find me a school. So remember, there's a couple of schools I was going to try and get me to, Tom Wood, Leighton Stone and that, but they was like, it's basically a situation where them schools were kind of better than the school I've been already. So they're not accepting me. So the only school that's going to accept me now is Warwick Boys, which to me, crazy, because I need to be in, yeah, I know, I'm going to naturally work better in a room with women and men. That's me in the class. That turns me up to school. That makes me put my shirt on in the morning. That makes me iron it, white, white trainers. And anyone knows me because I'm trying to be

Yay, I'm turning up because there's a lot of pretty ones in the school. So I definitely need to be around girls and boys to get my best education personally. Yeah, that's some personal how I see it. And that's me personally anyway, yeah. So now I get to move to work, boys. And this is where, look, I can sit in there and explain that, as I said, I've got loads of people coming on this chair to discuss these conversations and share their experiences and so on and so on. And people that believe me in my heart, wow, that you need to be listening to their stories. And if you want to change and if you want them to see where we've been, because we've been through all of the door so courses, you know what I'm trying to say, yeah? Not even no, like, oh yeah, we've done it. No, no, no, we're not here to do that. We're not, but I'm at an age where I've done it. I've been there and I'm kind of, so I can go through the little times in Priory Court, Walthamstow, which was big, but I'm more trying to reach to that stage now where I'm 30 now, I'm expelled from school. They're trying to get me in another school, which they get me into Warwick. And this is where we all merge now. This is where it gets a bit, it gets a bit, yeah, my life changed for the better and never for the worse because life's life, life and life's okay. But I'm just saying, we've been, so now I'm, I'm sorry about this, but let me just get to it now. So basically we leave school now. So you've got a little trio of us and my good friend Jonathan, yeah? And it's like, they must have moved house anyway, in like 1993, 1994, and they move over to Leighton. Yeah, and he was my good friend. So he moved over to Leighton. Then remember, it used to be me, Shifty, Shaki, and we used to do them little borrowing games, as I said again, I was just running around borrowing people's stuff. Some people would let me borrow their stuff and was all right a bit, some people wasn't all right a bit. And then I kind of ended up just little, little rummies with the police, but nothing too major because remember, I'm not, we're just borrowing stuff. Yeah, some people was all right, some people wasn't. So we have to work, I don't know how that works. But moving forward, so now I'm always spending times, as I said, Priory Court, my brother's got a girlfriend in Priory Court, so she's got a couple of brothers. So then we're kind of spending a lot of time in Priory Court and everyone in Priory Court, super respect in it because I've grew up with you lot, everyone from the ones that live on Forest Road to the Hill to all of Priory Court. Yeah, we all know where we are, where we started, how we grew up, yeah, and how we're trying to reach the next set of kids so they don't even, not say we had a bad life, but they're not trying to follow us because we can't say we've had, it's not about being there saying, oh yeah, be like me, don't be like me. That's what I'm trying to say, don't want to be me in a nice possible way. I've got super good traits in it, but then when my journey takes you there, I was all right with it. My mum said I've never complained and as anyone knows me, it was straight, do what, done what we needed to do. But I'm fighting anyway, as I said again, yeah, so we go to work boys and this is where it's mad because as I said, you've got, McKinney was a form in school from different barracks. And then once again, so I met a lot of good people from there, North London, respect everyone. And then

We move into Leyton, my brother moves to Leyton anyway. We start going to work, Brier School. So, from Warwick and then you got Wood Street. So then man, let me just, because I'm going to get through it now. So then we get to Wood Street and I start meeting up with Little Chris, Stephen, Bruno, David, the Smiths, they live in Bowman. I'm going to go mad for a minute, you know. Leyton Stone, Leyton. So there's a lot of us in it and everyone's got different traits. A hundred percent, I know a lot of them anyway from school and all that, but a lot of us are exposed now. So we're just kind of running around the streets. Not running around the streets, there's structure, but we're just not in school yet. Then when I went to Warwick, as I said again, it was never going to be for me. So once I got to Warwick, I'm out with, as I said, a few names I just threw in there. And later on, these guys will appreciate they come and give you their side of the story so you can understand where we've been, how much work. It's just something. And you know what, I'm going to go back and forth. People are going to say, oh my gosh, he's going mad again. Remember this, I'm saying he's going, he's not sticking. I am sticking to everything, but I have to also let you know, it's not going to be for everyone, yeah, as moving forward. And remember as well, the road, there's things on the road that wasn't for me either. So remember that my CV might be 98% and then there's things I'm not going to do, I'm not going to entertain, I'm never entertaining. And there's people I know that will entertain these things. So back to school again, yeah. So when I went to M-War, I find it, it wasn't for me. Yeah, and then at the same time, when I refer to my blog sometime, you see bright lights. I've come from a house where it's been busy. Yeah, my mom's house. And then there's them names, them super-influencers I use as well, yeah. And I appreciate my friend said to me, because once again, yeah, I have to appreciate these older guys and I didn't respect. Rest in peace, Patrick. Rest in peace, Hayden, innit? Because I use their names and they're not even here today, innit? For them to appreciate what I'm saying, for them to appreciate how they brought me up today, for me to even use them superman names on a platform to talk about them. Yeah, so maximum respect to their families and all that. And then remember, you've got Leon the Dyers as well. So back to Woodside, I have to freely throw them in. Sorry, the Dyers respect Leon, my bredren, Leon. So this is our little thing where we're going to start growing up, innit? And I'm kind of moving from Priory Court to Leyton, Leytonstone. And we're just running around doing silly stuff on the road. And when I mean silly stuff, we're just, yeah, we're starting to break the law. Yeah, we're breaking the law. And this is where I'm going to have to, remember, sorry, sorry, because remember, I'm not going to take this one long because this is serious. I've missed a week and this is important. Remember, I've got relationships, lifestyles, yeah, what I talk about. And then remember, I'm going to start coming into myself now. 13, 14, I'm starting to be, show real interest. I've always showed interest in girls, you know what I'm saying? But I'm trying to show a bit more. And then Leytonstone changed everything for me, 100%. So we're going to get there soon in the next conversation. Today was just literally catching up. I missed a week and I'm going to tell you the truth. But see, from next week, I've got other people coming to sit on the chair.

Because I'm going to be talking about relationships and lifestyles, how come the majority of the world, we all relate to that? Yeah, because your mum relationship with your dad, with your wife, with your girlfriend, with your new little teenage crush you've got from now, same with the conversation with the children's home, we're going to be discussing that with more people sitting around me. And I'm going to hit their experience and see how they've gone through and how they've come out and how I've come out and how I've come out. So even though it's a life, personal life story, my story can only go forward with everyone around me who's been a part around me, innit? And before I go too much, I'd still have to get, you know, have them little conversations, innit? Who needs to come next? But 100% the chair's going to be coming. I appreciate this. And today I've just gone a bit back and forth, I know. So maybe I'm not. Yeah, but I'm just letting you know where I am. And back to let me just try and finish off with that, because I'm going to be 13, 14. So next week's relationship lifestyles are going to start 100%. Sorry for this. I've been, we're not going to talk about the next topic after that, but it's going to be relating to prison because to be fair, we started spending a lot of time in prison from us, from 16 onwards, innit?